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13 May 2011 @ 02:08 am
Recognizing value....  
Writing for a living means I am far less chatty on my blog, which is ironic, seeing as I finally got around to re-claiming my domain and reconnecting with my great love of emotional exhibitionism.

This week, I signed a new client, which is good news. Even better, it's the first client I've encountered who actually wanted to pay me more than I was asking, simply because he thought I should be asking for more.

It's a good rule of life to live by, really. If you go through life undervaluing yourself, and expecting others to undervalue you in the same way, you'll never know what you're capable of. I have a tendency to do this, because I get too comfortable in the familiar, too frightened of losing what's important to me. I hang on to jobs that don't pay as well as they should, relationships that don't work, friendships that bring me more aggravation than happiness, even when I know I deserve better.

I'm not sure if it's really that I undervalue myself; after all, some might tell you I value myself a bit too much. Yet, there is some part of me that is not only unwilling to give up on things that don't quite work, but wants to cling to them, even when it is to my detriment.

And, so, it's eye-opening to me when a perfect stranger appreciates the value of something I do, and asks me why I am not asking for more. I don't have an answer to that, other than to look at myself and my life, and say, "Well, I guess that's definitely something I do."

It *is* something I do. Really, though, it probably shouldn't be.
 
 
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